Lack of work...don't you just hate it?

I mean, if you have a contract with someone and you get to receive your payment with or without work to do, it may be fine... boring but fine... Now when you work by self employment like I do (I'm a Nail Tech/Stylist and Makeup Artist) it's a whole different story...
Especially when throughout your years of work, most people you've co-worked with made your life a living hell, made you lose clients, money... I mean... It's not easy like this... Through these past 3 years and a half that I've been working as a self employed Nail Tech and Makeup Artist in salons getting paid by commission, I've crossed some salons where I just could nt fit in... For some reason, even though my work was good, no client would complain (on the contrary, they would compliment my work), the owners would want a higher percentage from my work, while I gave my time, fuel and my equipment and products. I gave them a 30% of my total income each day, without them doing NOTHING. Meaning, that while I worked and they didn't, they still would get 30% of what I got... and they wanted 50%!!! Like, HELL NO! You want that, you PAY the products, you get the equipment for me to work with... If you don't accept that, then it's 30% and I'm doing you a favour!
Then when I finally found a nice place, it shut down due to lack of clients...
THEN I went out of city, by my own cost, to a company that promised good income, a contract and commissions over the contract, and after almost a month (where I spent all my money on transports and food, and luckily I had a friend that let me stay at her house), they just gave me the commissions, and no other help, nor the contract they said they would give me... and let me tell you... I received two day commissions... Meaning, I spent more than the double than the income I got... And when I confronted them, they argued I was a horrible professional and got me off of the boat... This taught me to never EVER trust anyone...
Recently I found a salon at my hometown that accepted my requirements of work, but even though it's well situated, it seems that the finance crisis is really bad around here, because I have close to no clients.. So Im here, at the salon I've been for the past week and a couple days, doing this blog post, because, REALLY, I have nothing else better to do here...
Also I made a promotion sale of my work, doing the 1st aplication with extentions for the price of the maintenance (meaning that instead of making the nails for the minimum of 35€ I'm doing them for 15€... less than half of the price. I know I'm losing a hell load of money for a lot of work, but I'm hoping this will call the clients eyes). And still... no clients... -_-' This is sad, frustrating...and boring as hell... (I've been say "hell" a lot on this post... damn I'm frustrated...)

The other thing that is also getting me frustrated is that a friend of mine that hasn't seen me in almost a year, told me I'm too fat... -_- Now I'm frustrated... Like, yes, I know I'm 10kg heavier than I should... And yes, I know I need to workout and eat healthy... I started with the healthy eating already... I just need to feel the strengh in me to start the workouts... And I should walk more, and leave the car on it's place... I know, I know... I'm actually VERY lazy, and I shouldn't be... I WILL workout, just dunno when, but hopefully it will be soon enough ^^; hopefully... ^^;
Right now, due to my tattoo on my tighs I can't force my leg too much (besides the pain of stretching the skin, it can damage the tattoo and the skin), but in a week, I think, I'll be ready to do normal exercise with no pain, and without damaging either the skin nor the tattoo.

God damnit... I really got to put myself together and workout like a beast if I want to look like a beauty. I was never skinny to begin with, although I always envied my skinny perfect friends... And GOD how I hated when they would go like: "I'm so fat..." or "I'm so ugly..." in front of me. Seriously!!! You want/need people to tell you you're pretty and skinny when you already know that or do you have such bad vision it distorts you???? You KNOW you're skinny, and you KNOW you're pretty... Why do you say you're not???? >.<'
Anyways...
I hope I don't be like that once I lose (at least) these 10kg...

Wish me luck guys!!! :D