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HEY guys!!!


So this time I'm comming here just to ramble about two things that I REALLY want to have right now...
First I'll explain the reason, then I'll say what I want! ლ(⌒▽⌒ლ)

So I've been trying to invest more time and learning new skills for my videos on YouTube lately, meaning I realized I don't have a good background and lighting nor a good camera...
The background is too distracting because there are too many things there (yeah I could clean it up if I had a bigger house to do so... unfortuantely I don't), and the lighting is too yellowing and weak... Not to mention the camera, that not matter what I do is always changing my skin color. And it's automatic white balance option is even worse than any other option it has... {{p´Д｀q}}

So, what I'm saying is, I found a nice kit of studio lighting here ->

Excellent Studio Lighting Kit (my personal choice between the two)

Studio Lighting Kit

And my camera of option here -->

Canon 600D

And I'm here wishing really hard that someone kind enough will help me achieve these two babies ∪･ω･∪
I'm not asking for people to buy me stuff...but I'd be really glad if I could get some help here, so I'll be linking here my paypal donation link, so people interested in helping me can contribute with as much as they what for these two objects that I need so badly for my videos improvement...
Thank you all in advance for your kindness (I'll also reply to each donor's e-mail personally to thank you).

My last days

So besides uploading my last tutorial, I've been searching for tutorials myself... And not makeup tutorials. After Effects and Premiere tutorials... Very speciffic ones to help me improve my videos and my intros (that I must admit, are pretty lame).
It's very tyring, and somehow upsetting/frustrating. I'm one of those kind of persons that wants to know how to do things in the exact instant I started learning... It's not that I wanna be a pro immediatly, but I want to see immediate results from just one try... Meaning, no failure. I'm one of those people that is quite affraid of failure. I mean, no one likes failure, but not everyone fears it I guess... right?

Anyways, I've been literally wasting my time searching for good After Effects video tutorials, that's been my life these past days...
I've filmed two tutorials, and I haven't started editing them because of that...

So bare with me, pretty please, because it may take a while.

XoXo!

Here!!! A new Nail Art Tutorial (★‿‿★ *)

It's been.... over 3 months I think?, since I last uploaded an actual tutorial... So sorry you all!!!

I'm still without my HD camera charger, and the other one I have, although it manages, it's not as great........ °(ಗдಗ。)°.
Meaning, recording with it will be mostly for reviews and vlogs (if you watch my latest review, you'll understand why).

It's not that it's bad quality or something... It's just that it ain't that great for close ups, and I can't see what I'm filming because I don't have a monitor facing me, like the other has... °(ಗдಗ。)°. I want my chargerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

Anyhow!!! Enjoy!!!

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Hey everyone!

Today I will just be splurring out some random stuff, because I'm bored, unemployed, and have been spending way too much time alone at home, because I'm in a country where I don't know anyone, I barely speak the main language (French), and I'm just depressed because getting a job here isn't as easy as I thought at first...

So today my day has started as normal as usual... get up at 10a.m. (yeah I'm not exactly an early morning person), fed my cat, got my breakfast, and have been in front of my PC cleaning my Facebook and YouTube... What I mean with cleaning is that I'm just simply and plainly removing people I don't know at all (from my FB), remove the "like" (FB) from pages that I don't even know WHY I liked it in the first place...and unsubscribe channels that do not interest me anymore...
I know for some this may sound a lot of work, and to other it can be disrespectful to the people that I'm unsubscribing,"unfriend" on facebook, and dislike the pages. But seriously... Why should I have my feed stuck up with stuff I don't want to see? I've been getting my feed (both in FB and YT) with more than 80% of stuff that do not interest me at all... And the stuff that interest me sometimes doesn't come up in the feed because of the rest that is in there (I seriously do not understand what FB and YT have done to make this happen, but a lot of pages in FB and Gurus in YT say that most of their subscribers (around 90-95%) receive the notification of their uploads... Which is a huge bum... I mean... We subscribe and like because we like that channel, so why did FB and YT decide that only 5% of the subscribers will get the news while the rest get to stay in the dark, waiting for the new uploads???? It's a huge mess these two (FB and YT) have cause here... I find myself being one of the 90-95% of people that do not get every new upload when it's uploaded in some channels and pages... I fnd myself in the obligation of GOING to the channel/page just to see if there's something new...
And another thing about Youtube, and this I don't know if it's happening to everyone or not, is that when I go to someone's channel (no matter who it is, because it's the majority of the +100 channels that I'm following) only SOME of their uploads will be there... For example, the other day I was searching for a speciffic video of a Guru, that I KNEW she would still have it, because it was the BEST video she produced so far, and I could no find it on her channel!!! But if I made the search for it on the YouTube search bar, it would appear, and YES under her channel name... but if I searched in HER channel (in the actual search bar) it would not appear... i mean... WTH is going on?!?!?!?! This pisses me off so much!!!!

Another thing that has been pissing me off is that I've tried to open an AdSense account to this blog or for my YouTube account, and it has been disaproved because they say the link is not working, and in the e-mail where they say that, they say to solve the problem before I resubmit the application... So I sign in to repeat the steps... and when I TRY to change the link...SURPRISE!!!! You cannot change the link, because there's NO WAY TO FREAKIN' DO IT!!!! And the best part is yet to come!!!! There's no contact info to contact the staff for help! only the troubleshoot that is a good for nothing, because they do not mention the problem I'm having ANYWHERE! And in the forum, where people try to help each other out (since the Google staff could not give a crap about their users' problems) the only answer I got was that I needed to create another google account and then apply with that new google account... The problem IS that when I did that, and tried to do the application (first for YT then for Blogger) I got the notification (not allowing to proceed with it) that if I wanted an AdSense account for YT/Blogger that I should apply for it directly from their servers (YT/Blogger). And I thought...ok, since this is a new Google Account, I'll need to try and change my e-mail on YT and Blogger to make this work....... and GUESS WHAT?!?!? There's no way i can do that!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (rage laugh) I cannot change the URL in the first application I did, and I cannot ask for an AdSense account to another Google account and try to connect it to this blog or to my channel because I have to make the appplication directly from the servers... and both my YT channel and this Blog are connected to my Google Account that wasn't approved due to some error in th URL, that I'm not allowed to change for some reason that I'm not aware of... (if some of you guys know how to go around this problem, PLEASE do tell me how, because I'm freaking out with this...).

So yeah... that sums it up....
I'll go back to what I was doing....
XoXo!!!

Latest works

So I've been lacking with some photos here of my works. So here are some of my latest works.

I need to REALLY finish the loads of video tutorials I have saved that just need the voice over... -_-

And there are many more on my Glitzy Nails Facebook Page, check it out, Like and Share my page :D

Plastic Surgery controversy

This subject affects mostly famous and popular people, and in here I will refer to three girls, two of them are Youtube Makeup gurus (one I think didn't submit to cirgury, but people say she does... which, seriously...why do they care???) and one of the most famous blogger. I'm talking about Xiaxue (Wendy, she submited to some plastic surgeries to alter her nose and her eyes if I'm not mistaken), JLovesMac1 (Jarmaine, she did breast augmentation) and Michelle Phan (now, here I think this ain't true... and even if it is, she looks gorgeous. People say she did something to her chin... I personally think she just got thinner and her makeup skills help a lot... although it does look longer).

The point I'm trying to make here is... I really couldn't care less... I mean... It's THEIR body, their life and money. They show themselves to us, they inspire us to be pretty and to be ourselves. Being ourselves doesn't always and just mean to never change something about you. It means that if you FEEL that you can improve something about you (may it be your nose, eyes, breasts, butt, legs, weight, hair color, etc..) and if you can do it, DO IT! I'm a supporter of change when it's about feeling good with ourselves. If you change because people say you should change, then I do not approve. I've done that my whole life... I've molded myself to the patterns that people made out of me... People around me want me to be fully natural and just accept what life gives me... Well, to me, life is about accepting what we get indeed, but also make something out of that that will please us. I recently started changing my nails to a style that most people think it's ugly or witch like, and I don't care. There are people who hate it and are mean and unpleasant about it, and there are the curious people that I actually find funny, and the people like me that LOVE these nails, but for some reason don't do them themselves... Then I started tattooing my body to my liking. I made a design of two wings I wanted to tattoo on my shoulder blades when I was 16, but I never got either the money or the guts to do them... And this past January I found the money and the guts, and a really good friend of mine to do them. She nailed them just like I wanted them! Then I started my second and third tatoo this month. The third tattoo that was a really small one is already finished, and the other is still in process. I'm doing this because I want it, and because I love how I feel with these changes. I feel like myself now... And THEN I dyed my deep dark brown hair into a baby pink color. I feel like a doll! I feel like myself...
And let me tell you... If I had the money like Michelle, Jarmaine and Wendy to make some plastic surgery on my, I would do it! I would change my nose (make it smaller and with a nice cute curved bridge instead of the crooked one that I have), I would change probably my maxillar bones to be more slender and feminine, and would shorten my chin a bit. And I would definetly alter my body slightly.
All this rambling for what? Simply for the fact that I don't get WHY people get so upset if Youtube Gurus, Bloggers, famous people get plastic surgery... We use makeup to enhance natural beauty and also to hide things we dislike about ourselves...
Altering how we look like comes from WAY back before us... Remember the Victorian dresses? They reshapped women's figure completely, they would shave their heads to wear silly white wigs! They would pamper their faces white! Even men did that!!! I mean... It's natural human behaviour to want to look nice, to look to certain standards...
Some people want to look like models... Other people want to look like dolls... Let them BE! It's WHO they are!!!!
Why get so upset about that? Why rage about it and attack or mock or even bully because of that! Everyone's different. We're individuals. We're FREE! Free to do what we want with ourselves. If it does not affect your life, why bother getting angry about it??? Seriously...
I just don't get it... -_-

Lack of work...don't you just hate it?

I mean, if you have a contract with someone and you get to receive your payment with or without work to do, it may be fine... boring but fine... Now when you work by self employment like I do (I'm a Nail Tech/Stylist and Makeup Artist) it's a whole different story...
Especially when throughout your years of work, most people you've co-worked with made your life a living hell, made you lose clients, money... I mean... It's not easy like this... Through these past 3 years and a half that I've been working as a self employed Nail Tech and Makeup Artist in salons getting paid by commission, I've crossed some salons where I just could nt fit in... For some reason, even though my work was good, no client would complain (on the contrary, they would compliment my work), the owners would want a higher percentage from my work, while I gave my time, fuel and my equipment and products. I gave them a 30% of my total income each day, without them doing NOTHING. Meaning, that while I worked and they didn't, they still would get 30% of what I got... and they wanted 50%!!! Like, HELL NO! You want that, you PAY the products, you get the equipment for me to work with... If you don't accept that, then it's 30% and I'm doing you a favour!
Then when I finally found a nice place, it shut down due to lack of clients...
THEN I went out of city, by my own cost, to a company that promised good income, a contract and commissions over the contract, and after almost a month (where I spent all my money on transports and food, and luckily I had a friend that let me stay at her house), they just gave me the commissions, and no other help, nor the contract they said they would give me... and let me tell you... I received two day commissions... Meaning, I spent more than the double than the income I got... And when I confronted them, they argued I was a horrible professional and got me off of the boat... This taught me to never EVER trust anyone...
Recently I found a salon at my hometown that accepted my requirements of work, but even though it's well situated, it seems that the finance crisis is really bad around here, because I have close to no clients.. So Im here, at the salon I've been for the past week and a couple days, doing this blog post, because, REALLY, I have nothing else better to do here...
Also I made a promotion sale of my work, doing the 1st aplication with extentions for the price of the maintenance (meaning that instead of making the nails for the minimum of 35€ I'm doing them for 15€... less than half of the price. I know I'm losing a hell load of money for a lot of work, but I'm hoping this will call the clients eyes). And still... no clients... -_-' This is sad, frustrating...and boring as hell... (I've been say "hell" a lot on this post... damn I'm frustrated...)

The other thing that is also getting me frustrated is that a friend of mine that hasn't seen me in almost a year, told me I'm too fat... -_- Now I'm frustrated... Like, yes, I know I'm 10kg heavier than I should... And yes, I know I need to workout and eat healthy... I started with the healthy eating already... I just need to feel the strengh in me to start the workouts... And I should walk more, and leave the car on it's place... I know, I know... I'm actually VERY lazy, and I shouldn't be... I WILL workout, just dunno when, but hopefully it will be soon enough ^^; hopefully... ^^;
Right now, due to my tattoo on my tighs I can't force my leg too much (besides the pain of stretching the skin, it can damage the tattoo and the skin), but in a week, I think, I'll be ready to do normal exercise with no pain, and without damaging either the skin nor the tattoo.

God damnit... I really got to put myself together and workout like a beast if I want to look like a beauty. I was never skinny to begin with, although I always envied my skinny perfect friends... And GOD how I hated when they would go like: "I'm so fat..." or "I'm so ugly..." in front of me. Seriously!!! You want/need people to tell you you're pretty and skinny when you already know that or do you have such bad vision it distorts you???? You KNOW you're skinny, and you KNOW you're pretty... Why do you say you're not???? >.<'
Anyways...
I hope I don't be like that once I lose (at least) these 10kg...

Wish me luck guys!!! :D